I've been dropping hints about this on NN for the past couple of days but don't yet feel comfortable admitting it on there so heres my first step. The people that read this blog regularly are people I trust with my business. I'm going to become a Domme. Yep, domination, submission, strapons, whips and chains. It's an ongoing process and I don't know how long it takes befoe you can really say you are one but I'm going to at least work towards a point where I feel I can say I'm a Domme and earn the right to be called Mistress by my very own submissive. I like women but mostly only to look at and admire as art so my sub(s) will be male. I've chatted to a friend on IM lately that has been willing to be my little bitch and let me act out both our fantasies in our chats. It's been fun, enlightening and a turn on to talk to someone about this lifestyle who is so open to trying it with me.
Also I think the best bit happened today. The person I was scared of telling the most turned out to be excited, curious and asked me to talk him through a fantasy we share.
I have lost a friend or two though over this and it has made some friendships awkward if not totally over. That definately sucks but at the end of the day I have to live my life for me. I feel happy in this decision and it's not like I'd ever force it on anyone. Domination is not about total bullying ownership, it's surprisingly sweet and tender. Your sub chooses to be owned by you, they give their whole being to you and you have a responsibility to protect them while they are in your charge. There are limits set by both of you on what you each will or wont do, they have a safeword for their protection and aftercare is very important, holding your sub close and giving them your full attention and letting them know they are loved.
The most important point to remember is that (for me at least) he may be by sub but he is always a man. I'm not out to emasculate him or get myself a true sissy boy (no matter what I call him in Humiliation Play). I think the sign of a good Dom/sub relationship is where you live these 2 'unequal' roles yet both feel equal to your partner....if its a long term relationship anyway.
Leave a comment if you want, I'd be interested in feedback. Good or bad, it wont change my choice this time.